Every morning I wake up two things come to mind: What is my daughter doing and then I start thinking about comedy. Depending on my attitude at the time, I am either optimistic and want to go out there and get it or I am pessimistic and just want to leave it be.
Comedy is not like another profession because so much subjective stuff goes into it. It is not just showing up to a work place and do jokes. You are not dealing with just an industry you are dealing with an industry that has many parts to it. You are not just going to Kansas to do a corporate gig. You are doing a corporate show, then one in the midwest, then one for whatever group hired you. There are so many things that someone looking at your video can just say no to that it is no wonder comedy is a hard nut to crack.
Personally I get to a point where I would rather die then give up comedy. Then I get a temp job that is paying well and the next thing you know I am thinking if I can give it up. That is a problem. That is when you have to realize that that loving feeling is starting to fade. The high you got from pursuing comedy is getting replaced with sadness and hatred then it is not something you should be doing.
Don’t get me wrong. This has nothing to do with people. This has to do with me. This has to do with the fact that I have not been able to get the attention of bookers. I sit at open mics and I just want to go home. I don’t even look forward to getting on stage. Maybe it is a phase, or maybe I am wrong. Maybe I can get over this in due time. Until then I will pick up a little job and keep myself busy.
This may be what happens when you are in a small market, but for some reason if you are from Spokane Washington and proclaim yourself a comic you get a look of distaste. Distaste may not even be the proper word, but it is the word that comes to mind fastest when you deal with outside booking agencies in regards to work. This is unique phenomenon to the Spokane comic. A portland comic gets at least a glance. A Seattle comic will at least get that one chance to show what they can do. Now, before I go further this is not a pity party. For someone that no one knows I do pretty good for myself work wise and respect wise. It is the other 20 or so comics that I am writing this for.
Whenever I get to sending out avails to these bookers one of the first things that cross my mind is to include that I am living in Spokane Washington. To someone that books in the Midwest, that is a great thing to know because the distance is shorter (as compared to Portland or Seattle). I think it boils down to people assuming that Spokane has shitty comics because people assume Spokane is a shitty place to live. Why would you try to be a comic in a shitty town unless you are a shitty comic. As you can see this is a circular argument with no end in sight.
If you listen to older comics they will tell you it has to do with a couple of guys who used to live here back in the day. They wrote bad checks and screwed people, so a general hatred developed for the Spokane comic. Another story goes that this is the land of the joke thief. People who bring their glorious jokes here soon find out that they are getting ripped apart like some roadkill.
That is not the comics that I hand out with. Have gotten to know. They are good comics who are just in a pretty ridiculous spot (more on that in another post). They have to bear the brunt of the ones before them. That is pretty fucked up if you ask me. I tell these guys that if they want to rip that stigma away from themselves then they have to be out there in the scene proving that they can murder a stage. You can’t half ass it when people already think you are shitty to begin with.